dulu-dulu

Assalamualaikum & hi! :)

zti baru je habis baca note kat FB. ala, manual note. zti buat tu masa zaman belajar dulu. saja nak kemaskinikan apa yang patut kan? kan? but then, jumpa la note ni. hehe.

"If you found a wallet filled with cash on the street, what would you do with it?
- check wallet dl,mana tw kot2 dpt laki hensem" - 17 April 2010

bila ingat balik, gila betul zti ni. dalam otak masa dulu hanya terfikir lelaki hensem, kacak bergaya, itu ini, itu ini. tapi sekarang ni dah terbiasa ada duit kat tangan. dah terbiasa melangkah kaki ke tempat yang mewah, dah terbiasa makan makanan hebat, dah tak fikir apakah lelaki hensem pujaan hati zaman belajar dulu masih tetap hensem lagi ke tak.

actually, masa belajar dulu zti ni buas sangat! ya Allah, rasanya semua lelaki dahi licin lalu depan mata, terus jatuh hati, kononnya love from first sight. darah tengah panas, segalanya jadi hot ja.

dijadikan cerita, masa belajar dulu. zti ada admire someone. dia ni memenuhi citarasa zti dan sampai sekarang zti masih cari dia, paling zti suka sekali senyuman dia. I thought that he was my first love. (maybe)

• pergi kelas, selisih dengan dia, 
• balik dari gym, nampak dia main sepak takraw depan hostel, 
• tengah beratur kat kafe nak ambil makanan, dia dengan kawan-kawan tengah lepak kat luar sambil merokok, 
• keluar kolej, jumpa dia kat gerai makan favorite shaef. 

oh my! banyak sangat kebetulan dalam sehari. boleh dikatakan stiap hari, I never missed him. hehe.

sampai la suatu hari, two days before grad. he gave a called ask for lunch. tak danya den nak tolak, terima lagi ada! excited you know! I'm wearing yellow shirt lycra cotton & black straight cut jeans semata-mata untuk keluar dengan dia. it's our first date. :p
air yang tak sedap langsung tu (jus cinta) dan makan apa entah lupa la pula, entah macam mana boleh jadi sedap gila hari tu. tapi minum tak habis la, control kan! oh my! malunya.
that day, zti tengok dia dengan jarak yang paling dekat. too close daripada sebelum ni, I can smell his perfume, I can feel his gently touch (Allahu'akhbar. zaman jahil), his beautiful hair, structure his face, when he smile, he winked, he laughed, and the most of all when he concentrated on what I'm talking to. that expression really attract me to be close to him. too close.
suddenly, he grab my hand telling me that I'm his typical girl that he liked (Allahu'alam) the way he looked me in the eyes, I can tell that  he try telling me truth and then he confess his feeling with the music that he played using his iPhone (love malay song, I guess), and....... unfortunately I said 'no!'

OMG. what is going on with me. the opportunity was right front of me. uh-huh! apa-apapun until now feel regret of what I did before. kadang-kadang rasa macam nak patah balik masa. nak je bagitau dia 'yes! I do'. tapi benda dah lepas kan, redha je la. dah tak ada jodoh kan? kalau ada jodoh, insyaAllah kami akan bertemu kembali mungkin dalam keadaan yang lebih baik dari sebelum ini atau sah menjadi yang halal. insyaAllah. amin. :D